OLDER
CONTACT ME
DIARYLAND
2003-10-20 - 12:53 a.m.
I tossed and turned most of the night, which is rather hard to do while sleeping on the floor. I couldn't find a comfortable position to sleep in and I just could fall asleep.
"Why don't you just sleep up here next to me?" Amy leaned over the side of the bed and whispered to me. "No, I'll be fine down here." I rolled towards her to fine her face inches from mine. "Everytime you move the floor creaks and wakes me up. And that damned chain around your neck keeps making noise. Take it off and get up here, don't bother arguing either." And she rolled back over. "Fine." I said as I climbed in bed with her. I stayed on top of the covers, because that's just how I am. She backed her body up against mine as much as she could with the covers between us. "Boy, if you don't get under these covers I'm going to hurt you." "Fine." I mumbled as I moved the covers and pulled them back up to my chest. I laid there on my right side with my back to her and the wall. She rolled over and grabbed my arm, forcing me to roll facing her. "There is no reason to be afraid of me Seven, I don't bite unless you want me to." She flashed a smile at me and rolled over again, pressing her back against me. We lay there together, the length of our bodies pressing against each other. I inhaled deeply, her hair smelled of rose oil and lilacs; it smelled familiar and calming. I reached my left arm around her and pulled her close to me. She took my hand in hers and held it close to her face. "You feel cold." She pressed her lips to the top of my hand as she spoke. "Yeah, but you feel warm." As I said it she pushed her body up against mine again. She rolled over in my arms so we were facing each other, wrapping her arms around me. I leaned my head down and placed my forehead against hers. We just stared into each other's eyes for a while. Then she pulled her head up and kissed me. Of all the people I knew in Redstone the only one I had never done anything with was Amy, she was just my best friend, but I guess she wanted that to change. I tried to just go with it. I kissed her back, I ran my hands over her body, she ground herself into me and my body responded favorably, but my heart just wasn't in it. Nikki kept creeping back into my mind. Her touch as she ran her hands over my scars. The sound of her voice that first day in the bookstore. The smile she gave me before she kissed me, the feel of her lips against mine. I pushed away from Amy. She lifted her head off of the bed and looked at me. "I can't Amy." "You seem pretty able at the moment." She ran her hand over my thigh, close to my crotch. "Physically I can, mentally I can't. I don't even know what's going on with the girl, but she's taking over my thoughts. I can't get her out of my head." I put my hands under my head and stared at the ceiling. "Good God man. The girl ran out of your house in fear after she kissed you. I seriously doubt you can build a relationship off of that." She moved her head onto my arm. "You're the one who said not to worry, that she'd be back. Changing your tune so quickly?" "Of course she'll be back. You're the only person she gets along with in this forsaken little city. But I don't think anything other than friendship will come from it." "One never knows Amy, one never knows." I said with a yawn. If she replied, I didn't hear it because I fell asleep quickly.
